I failed to journal last night…but we spent the day between Simonette and Oscars orphanage in Titanyen.

Anytime I am in Titanyen, I can not help but think about Mackee.  I wonder where she is, how she is doing, if she would remember me.  I knew we were going to a different section, but I kept my eye out just in case.  It is a little hard to think that she could be right around the corner, but that I will probably never see her again.

Anyways, Oscars orphanage has 20 kids.  We hung out and played soccer a little bit, and spent time inside with the kids.  Many of us had our hair done, including me, by the sweetest little Haitian girls.  I will say that it hurts, but  it is a simple thing we can do for them that shows that we care without having to break the language barrier.   I can’t imagine having to share my love and affection for my “parents” with 19 other children…I can imagine the personal attention the orphans get from us for the few short hours we are there must be pretty special.

All in all a decent day for most people.  I have to confess that I am having a hard time finding my place on the team again this year.   I had a pretty negative attitude most of the day.  As much as I am willing to do for the country and people of Haiti, I do not feel a strong connection or draw to most of the people here.  Is my heart too hard?  Or is God setting up something else for me?  I know many of my friends are being called into the missions field in a very specific way…what about me God?  Where would you have me go, and what would you have me do?